*This post is very difficult to write, and may not be my best writing. Bear with me as I sort through my feelings. I try not to do that much!
As most of you know, I had brain surgery on April 4th, 2006. I was 18 and it changed my entire life. Every year, April 4th is a rough day for me. When that day came around, I always focused on the negative.
I changed; My body changed.
I lost who I was.
I won't be who I could have been.
Part of me died that day.
The true me died that day.
In fact, I secretly called it my "death day."
Not this year. 6 years of thinking that is enough.
I went out to lunch with a friend, and when I told him this, he referred to the day as my "birthday."
It is- it's my "re-birthday!" (How fitting that it is around Easter!)
I did change- for the better! I wouldn't be here (in JVC) without it. The larger truth is that I wouldn't be here (alive) without it.
I did not lose who I was- I merely grew into who I am!
I am who I was meant to be. This experience was going to happen in my life, and I'm thankful to have had capable doctors, the best therapists, and a WONDERFUL AND SUPPORTIVE family and friends that stuck with me through it all!!
Part of me changed that day, but I didn't die!
The "true me" never died- I AM ALIVE! (For many years I thought I should have died and was angry that I didn't, but I am glad to be alive now! I'm not dead, and that means God has a purpose for me being on this earth today!)
Today you are you
that's truer than true,
There is no one alive
who is youer than you!